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The Happiest of Birthdays!

Today marks my 36th year on Earth.

As I reflect on all my years, I’d like to share some of my fondest memories.

As a child, I would look forward to my mom coming home from from school with my cake. Her assistant, Doris, baked my cakes every year. I was always so excited to see how it was decorated. My favorite had a carousel on it.

One year, my sister Beth took me to my first Laker game. That was cool because I got to share that with my mom. One of bucket list items was to see a Laker game!

When I turned 30, Edgar and my staff at OP threw me a party at the Rumba Room. We did it UP; limo, VIP. Bottle service, the whole nine. Good times.

Oh yea, one time when I was still pretty young…maybe 3 or 4. We went to our FAVORITE Mexican restaurant for my birthday. They sang Las Mañanitas to me. I cried and hid under the table. I didn’t understand what and why they were singing to me. I still don’t like to be the center of attention. LOL

Now my birthdays are pretty low key but memories are still made nonetheless. Here’s to many more healthy and memorable born days!!



New and Improved!


I’m alive!

Been working on me!

About 2 months, eating healthy and exercising! Down 18 pounds!!

Still a work in progress! Motivation is key! I have my eyes on the big picture!


CAUTION: Emo Alert!

Not a fan of 2012 thus far! Not too much has gone my way since
I watched that damn ball drop. 

I will not go into detail... Three days of anxiety attacks 
lead me to post the most powerful lyrics that speak to 
me from Gary Jules', "Mad World"... 

Its just where I'm at...
All around me are familiar faces Worn out places, worn out faces  
Bright and early for the daily races 
Going nowhere, going nowhere  
Their tears are filling up their glasses 
No expression, no expression 
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow 
No tomorrow, no tomorrow 
And I find it kind of funny, 
I find it kind of sad 
The dreams in which I'm dying 
are the best I've ever had 
I find it hard to tell you, 
I find it hard to take 
When people run in circles 
its a very, very Mad world, mad world! 

Carry on!!

I love my SPAWKLE!!

Was feeling like getting my nails done. Yesterday was a downer, emotional day. I needed a pick me up!!

So I treated myself…

So? Whatcha think?! Kinda festive..and makes me smile every time I catch a glimmer!!

Fear the Flock!!

I’m not afraid of too many things, I can stomach alot! Flocks of BIRDS? Mmmhmm, yea…insert anxiety!

Not sure how it started, but I have realized my fear in my adult life. I’m ok with one bird, two birds, maybe even three. But when there’s a flock of them, forget it.

As a child, I always wondered where the birds went at night. You rarely see a bird at night! Several years ago I learned that ALL the crows of California go to sleep at DISNEYLAND. I remember it as if it were yesterday! My sister and I were in line to get popcorn at dusk. The whole sky turned black and constant cawing of crows was deafening. I was scared. I had to get away. I had to seek shelter.

In the past two days, 2 separate friends saw/encountered flocks of their own. Of course they HAD TO share. Luckily, pictures do not scare me. Thanks for sharing Rebekah and Jennifer!




My happy place!!

In light of the last few posts, I needed a happy post…

I collect make up!! I don’t wear it everyday, but when I do? I LOVE LOVE LOVE playing with it. Trying new things, blending new shades, trying new tricks, etc.

I have no real training. I have watched alot of shows, read alot of magazines and even quasi-stalked make up counters to get tips and techniques.

I participated in a photo contest, Say Cheese, a day in the life of Long Beach, sponsored by CAT and Justin Rudd!! Because I love make up, I HAD to put a pic of my “toys”!

This Saturday, all the participants photos will be displayed on 2nd Street in front of Chase Bank! The winners will be announced at 4:10, I’m so excited to see my photos displayed. Even though, I may not have one of the 10 winning shots, I still had fun participating!! I’m sure it will be more fun once I get more experience with my fancy shmancy camera!!


Whatcha think??

Won’t happen to ME!


Growing up, I had a friend who’s boyf put hands on her. I remember saying, “shiiieeet, I’d NEVER let that happen to me!”

Well guess what? It did!

I was in a very UNhealthy relationship. I dealt with alot of verbal abuse, got physically pushed around and knocked down. I allowed it! In my head, being with him was better than nothing. It took me quite a while to figure out that this WAS not the case.

The last straw, you ask!? Being punched in side of my head (cheekish earrish area) like I was a dude. His family saw it go down and did NOTHING!! Hell yea, I fought back! Didn’t do too much damage, but I did what I could. After all was said and done, I played my cards right, drove away from him AND that relationship!!

Now, I have enough self worth to know that I will not accept that BS in my life. I do not blame anyone. I made the choice to stick around. I made the choice to settle. Now I choose to be happy…

I can really say, “It won’t happen to me ever again!”



This is a very hard post…

I’ve struggled with the idea of posting this, but this blog is for and about me! So here goes…

If you know me, you know I LOVE kids! I’m kinda like a kid whisperer! In public, kids are drawn to me. I have this kid aura! That being said, when I meet new parents at work, they are amazed that I do NOT have kids. I always get: “You don’t have kids?”, “How old are you?”, “What are you waiting for?”.

It’s just not our time. Someday I will be fortunate to be called the name I’ve yearned for…MOMMY! I will have earned and prepared for it!!

I would be lying if I said that I didn’t want to be blessed with a baby NOW! I’m a bit sad and jealous (not an attractive trait, but it’s the truth!) when I see all my friends as parents sharing the love, running themselves ragged for their kids and making it happen.

Someday that will be me!! I can’t wait!! I pray everyday that I can do it without the guidance of my own mom!! I can only dream, for now…

Snap, SHATTER, Pop!

The much sought after OPI Shatter Nail Polish from the Katy Perry Collection!

While unwinding after Amy’s yard sale, I picked the WINNING (Charlie Sheen voice) combo! Amy worked her magic and they look fab-o! Now my mind can’t stop thinking of the color combination possibilities! I NEED my own bottle!

Whatcha think?



If you’ve been following NYAWC, you would know that I was obsessing over some heels last weekend.

Obsession dismissed. CFM heels purchased and I can’t wait to get out and wear em! Stay tuned…