handy dandy notebook #5

on occasion, at rest time, at school, I grab my handy dandy notebook and get to writing!! this was originally written on 12/11!
As Christmas fast approaches, I am reminded of a lot…
**I have NO money! As much as I love to do for others, I can’t anymore.
I purely get joy from buying things for others. This year is a bit more tricky.
My money is super short!!
**I miss my mom! Yesterday was the day, five years ago that she finally decided that she couldn’nt take the pain anymore. We took her to the ER.
What a five years this has been! Full of ups and downs. Truthfully, most were DOWNS! 😦
**I have nil Christmas spirit. I thought I could get into it this year.
I put up lights and a wreath, but that’s it. Maybe it boils back down to the above…no money and remembering the pain of 5 years ago!
I am confident that I will get past all of this. I am just emotional and impatient!
Tis the season…
who knows?

About slaintelbc

not your average white chick...

Posted on December 13, 2009, in emotions, holidays, mom, notebook, venting. Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.

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